life.

keep marching on.

2011-03-06T13:40:00.006+11:00

it's been a while since i last blogged. can't believe we are already into March. but yet i reckon that it passed at a comfortable pace. i think this is how it feels when you take life as it comes; a day at a time. no matter what, time passes. the longer you stay in one moment, the longer the hurt lingers, and the more you feel you have to catch up when you finally decide to move on.

i'm happy with how i've progressed. it certainly required a lot of discipline and determination. there have been certain days where i let negativity take hold of my thoughts. but i learnt something very important - when you stop believing in something, it is so much easier to let it go.

it is perfectly ok to feel and experience emotions. we feel because we're alive. so never let anyone tell you that feeling a certain way is wrong. perhaps we can try to minimise the negative and toxic emotions. but if you don't let them run through your veins once in a while, how can you say you truly lived as a human?

on a lighter note, it's been a month since we've moved to the new apartment. sometimes it is amazing how things can surprise you. i initially didn't quite like the new apartment, and was afraid of missing the old one, but realised that if you give anything a chance and make the most out of it, it'll soon start to grow on you. nothing stays the same and the more you resist, it'll only cause you unnecessary stress.

i'm also looking forward to starting my sewing classes! will begin end of march. really hoping to nurture my creative side more from now on. finally bought my camera too! decided on the olympus ep-l2. i'm hoping that exploring my creative side will provide me with an avenue to express myself, and give me something to keep marching on. will be starting a new creative blog soon which will feature some of my attempts :)

also, i know i keep saying this but i really wanna travel anywhere apart from Australia and Singapore! but i know given my circumstances, i shouldn't be harping on having that happening any time soon. focus on what you have and not what you don't.

alrighty, think i've overdosed on the quotes and sayings. but as someone who likes to think, analyse and reason, these quotes and sayings keep me grounded.

one more to end it off - never self-pity!

xo
sarah

a new year.

2011-01-02T15:28:00.002+11:00

it's the second day of the new year. somehow 2010 seemed to pass by too quickly for my liking. however, despite it going by so fast, a lot of things happened in 2010, and it is certainly a year i would like to remember.

though i wish i could have change some things, i don't regret anything. we learn something every day. perhaps, yes, if i acted in a certain manner things would have been better. but with that said, i'm not taking into account of my circumstances then; i have to cut myself some slack. i like to believe that everything happens for a reason (as everyone likes to say).

i learnt a lot about myself the past 2 months, and that i feel is more important than anything else. but i can't deny that i'm still hurting. but life only moves in one direction - forward. i can't change the past. but i can change the present, and to a certain extent exert some control over the future; though this does not mean that i can predict it.

i may have lost a sense of a direction in life last year, but at least i now acknowledge that life is a journey and that i should take it one step at a time.

cheers to a new year :)

xo
sarah

perspectives.

2010-12-12T11:57:00.008+11:00

the past few months for me has so far been the most trying time of my life. there was so much going on (though most of it was due to how i perceived things) and i just kept swimming in my own mess. i was really on the verge of a breakdown. the two weeks back to Singapore allowed me to take a breather, and step out of it entirely.

and i'm glad it made me realise TWO things.

1. Patience. One step at a time.

i've been rushing my life too much this year. i have to slow down and remember that life is a journey. why rush to the finish line? take things one step at a time.

2. You're responsible for your own happiness.

no matter how hard the people around you try to make you happy, if you still choose to be unhappy, you will be. i'm responsible for my own happiness. i should have never, ever (and i really regret this) made anyone feel responsible for my happiness. it's undue pressure. and for that, i'm truly sorry. and i'm sorry for dragging you down too.

with the above in mind, i hope to start 2011 right.

but i won't wait till then to start; i'll start right now.

xo
sarah

welcoming change.

2010-11-27T17:28:00.002+11:00

i realised i have broken my sunday blogging tradition. but why be so uptight about things? right? :)

anyways, something hit me today. it's making me think hard on what i've become.

read on here.

xo
sarah

where i'd rather be.

2010-10-31T14:16:00.002+11:00

there's you here, but they are there.

you make me very happy and i want to be with you, but my life here just doesn't feel quite right.

i don't know where i'd rather be.

my wish list.

2010-10-24T23:09:00.003+11:00

it's soon to be the last week of october. october just seem to have come and gone so quickly. nothing much really happened. and soon, it's going to be the second last month of the year. sheesh. once december arrives, it would be christmas and then new year's. and it will be the same s**t all over again.

hmm...

well, i guess even though i don't really celebrate christmas, i can still have a christmas wish list. ever since i started working full-time, i've been trying to spend wisely; to save up for the future. but maybe i should pamper myself once in a while. and currently, these are the items that are on the top of my list.

1) a new digi cam - Olympus EP-L1 maybe?

i'm hoping that with this new camera, i'll go around capturing the sights around me more. hopefully, i'd be able to bring this along with me on travels, taking photos of the world, nature and people. i want to be able to look back at my photos in the distant future and relive moments gone.

2) a new digi piano

I currently have a digital keyboard, but am hoping that with a digital piano (with a full keyboard), i would be able to play more scores and improve on my piano playing skills. but i still miss my electronic organ back home.

something less tangible, but still a big wish of mine...

3) to be happy

being happy is not easy. sometimes you have to try hard to be happy. which is kinda ironic if you think about it. but yes, i want to be happy with my life here. and i'm very thankful for a special person here, for without him, i think i'll be a major wreck now. i guess in a sense, i'm lucky i have him here and that i should be grateful about. i miss home. real bad.

and something that's probably the root of my unhappiness...

4) to get my PR granted

i hope my PR gets granted soon. i wanna travel freely. i don't wanna be restricted. i wanna go home, visit stevie and friends! i miss home. sometimes i ask myself, why am i here then? i don't know. i never know anything do i. sigh.

oh wells, it's not a long list, but its a BIG list. i know for some of the above i have to work hard at it myself; whereas for some others like no. 4, i really have no control of.

and then the week starts, and we all look forward to the weekend again.

xo
sarah

it's never easy.

2010-08-15T14:12:00.002+10:00

3 years ago when i made the decision to study here in Sydney, it was one made with much certainty. i was sure that coming to Sydney would be a good thing for me. i'll learn to be independent and grow as a young woman. i knew i would be leaving my family, friends and life back in Singapore, but i never imagined it to be so hard.

2 and a half years passed by quickly and i graduated from university; the purpose of my journey here. but i made the decision earlier this year to stay. it was not an easy one for me. i was really at conflict with myself. i missed Singapore but i didn't want to go back for good. perhaps i feared change again. it took me a while to adapt to Sydney, and now when i can say i'm comfortable here, i have to choose again. and i guess a part of me knew that while i was away, life in Singapore didn't come to a stand still. everyone's life continued on. and i find myself feeling less in sync with the country i grew up in. i'm afraid that if i go back, i'll feel out of place.

life decisions ain't easy. and i know that i've committed myself to living here in Sydney for a little while longer. i just can't give up like this. and no matter what happens, i've gotta be happy for what i have and for what i have achieved. finding yourself is probably the hardest thing to do at times. but i think, sometimes even if you don't manage to find yourself, as long as you're happy with who you are, it's all good.

i don't know what is right or what is wrong for me. but i want to be happy.

xo,
sarah

to ease the mind.

2010-05-30T01:55:00.004+10:00

it's been a while since i wrote an entry. things were just a little hectic the past few months. julie had her wedding, i went back to Singapore for 2 short weeks :( , came back to Sydney and there was graduation, parents were here, went to Melbourne during a long weekend, and the past few weeks were just spent finding a full-time job. that's pretty much what happened since the last time i wrote.

so yea, people always say finding a job is hard, and sometimes, you just think that they are overreacting. but no, they're right. at least for me. i guess i haven't been searching for that long, and at least i still have my current job. but i really really wanna get a full-time job soon! it'll mean so much to me really. because at least then, i won't have as much free time to think about Singapore. i miss everyone back there - friends, family & stevie! not the weather tho. but yea, sometimes when you're alone and don't really have much to do, your mind just fills with thoughts. and for me, it's mostly negative thoughts :(

i guess there are things i can keep myself occupied with. just that i'm so unmotivated (or you can say lazy) and i'd rather dwell on the sad stuff. oh wells, that's certainly something i need to work on.

so yep, that's why getting a full-time job means so much to me. afterall, that's the purpose i'm still here in Sydney - to work.

wish me luck & fingers crossed that i'll get one soon.

xx
sarah

p.s. can't believe it's just two more days to june!

double celebrations.

2010-02-14T17:54:00.007+11:00

Wishing Everyone a Happy and Prosperous Year of the Tiger

祝大家，新年快乐！恭喜发财！心想事成！

and a Happy Valentine's ♥

xx
sarah

satisfyingly tired.

2010-02-07T23:59:00.000+11:00

i can't believe its february! we're already into the second month of 2010. sheesh. this can't be happening. but at the same time, i'm rather excited and glad as i would be heading back to Singapore in march! only for 2 weeks this time round, but yea, better than nothing! :)

the past week was hectic, getting my PR application sorted (thankfully that's almost done), preparations for Julie's wedding (next saturday), running errands etc. also, work has increased my days per week to 3! so more work but also more money i guess :P i do wanna get a full-time job soon and will definitely start applying once i come back from Singapore, but yea, this job suits my needs at the moment as it is pretty flexible, plus, i really like what i'm doing! :)

i guess i'm starting to enjoy life here more; maybe it's cause i don't have to study anymore! haha! but yea, it could be because i'm kept rather occupied these days :P

anyways, i'm really looking forward to Singapore! can't wait to see Stevie too! miss him sooo much! i'm not sure if i wanna party heaps this time (feeling old now), but would definitely like to catch up with as much people as possible within that 2 weeks.

see you soon Singapore! :)

xx
sarah

p.s. i kinda tweaked the date for this entry as i didn't have time to type it out yesterday :P

the end of a decade.

2010-01-03T14:08:00.009+11:00

i remember when i was 12, 2010 seemed so far away. that time, we were all just ushering in the new millennium, excited about whats to come. i still recall sitting in front of the computer, worrying about the y2k bug! haha! those were the days. but it is certainly amazing how much the world has changed since then especially in terms of technology. the internet was only starting to be more readily available to people. mobile phones screens were still composed of pixels. wait...pagers (or beepers) were the "in-thing" then! LOL!

10 years on, it is hard to find someone without a colour phone on our streets. broadband connections are commonplace. assessing the internet on your mobile is normal. and then there's friendster, myspace, facebook, twitter, and all the different social networks that's revolutionizing the way we meet, communicate and interact with people. sheesh. what a decade!

on a personal level, i too have changed. i'm no longer a 12 year old kid, but in fact have just recently graduated from uni. so many things took place that it is hard to keep track of. i've met many great friends (though i feel that i've not rendered them enough attention). i learnt how to play badminton. i was in a team that won the national badminton championships. i graduated from secondary school. i learnt how to make coffee. i received my first pay check. i got into my first relationship. i did an internship at a PR firm. i received my diploma. i moved to another continent. i suffered a broken heart. i graduated from uni. i'm working part-time now (though hoping to start working full-time soon). i've decided to stay in australia for a while more.

whoa! that's pretty much what happened in the past decade; all summed up in a paragraph :)

and here it is in a picture. sorta.

* the past decade *

so yea, 2010 has arrived and we're already into the 3rd day. this year i decided against new years resolutions. besides, i never keep to them. but i have a few wishes though. and that is to be happy, healthy and active. oh, and to get my PR and a full-time job :) that's all i want, and i think that's really all i need now. i believe the rest will somehow just fall into place as it goes.

well, the end of the decade only signifies the start of a new one. so yep, let's all toast to a great decade ahead!

xx
sarah

almost ready.

2009-12-27T23:39:00.005+11:00

thought that with the new year approaching, it should be time to refresh the look of my blog which has become rather stale over the months. it looks fine on my browser (Firefox 3.5.6) but i still need some time to make it compatible with other browsers. so give me a while. hopefully it'll be ready in time for the new year. somehow i have a feeling that 2010 is going to be a year full of new experiences and change. so...stay tuned! :)

xx
sarah

bring on the next chapter.

2009-11-08T17:45:00.006+11:00

it's been about a week and a half since i handed in my last assignment and i must say the feeling of having finished uni is starting to sink in. since returning to Sydney after a really fun, fulfilling, and enjoyable trip at the Whitsundays with the media girls, i have been stressing out over what's to come. with the new rules and regulations rolled out by the immigration department, it's becoming harder to get permanent residency here. also, my mind keeps filling up with all the different ideas and things that i can do and it is certainly taking a toll on me. my throat has been hurting badly the past 2 days and i'm starting to get the sniffles.

i guess what shelley said its true. i'm still high on adrenaline. having just completed uni, i'm just so eager to rush into the next chapter of my life; wanting to "make it". but then again, what's the rush? i do have the rest of my life to make it in the real world. to materialize those dreams of mine. to achieve success. yea, true. but i guess its cause i know i'm not getting younger. those halcyon days of youth are about to end. i would be thrust into the cruel, unforgiving, vicious world out there and left to fend for myself. and as Charles Darwin would say, it is the survival of the fittest out there. and i want to live a good life. i want to prove to myself that i am capable. i wanna do a lot of things!!! ahhhh...what i really need to do now is to CHILLAX and enjoy myself for a while. rest and recuperate from the past 16 years of studying.

it is scary, and i know the next year will see me going through many changes. scary, but exciting. oh wells, all i can do now is breathe and write lists :)

anyways, here's some photos from the Whitsundays. OMG. Whitehaven beach seriously has the WHITEST sand i have ever seen.

* goofing around in our apartment at Airlie Beach *

* on a cruise to the Great Barrier Reef *

* snorkeling at the Great Barrier Reef *

* enjoying the WHITE sand on Whitehaven Beach *

* white sand + blue sky + clear water = bliss *

* Whitehaven Beach *

* Taking time out to finish reading my book *
(the book was so-so, ok for a light read i guess)

And to finish today's post, here's a picture from Julie's hens' night. Yes, we had to wear costumes and i wore the french maid costume. well, i think any attempt on my part to look sexy always results in the direct opposite. so yea...moving on..lol!

i am tinkling with excitement. i wanna do things. i just need to sort my thoughts out and relax. and remember that nothing happens overnight. everything takes time.

so bring on the next chapter of my life.

xx
sarah

S.O.S

2009-10-25T22:05:00.008+11:00

COULD SOMEONE PLEASE PLACE A RESTRAINING ORDER ON MY THOUGHTS!

Essay. Focus. Last Essay. Focus.

FINAL ESSAY!

FOCUS!

letting it all go.

2009-10-16T21:17:00.006+11:00

i'm gonna break my sunday tradition today and blog on a friday. here's all for being spontaneous and trying new things :P

it is scary. i'm down to my last week of uni. if you ask me how i'm feeling, honestly, i don't know. i am to a certain extent happy, as i'm seriously tired of studying; but yet, there is a hint of regret. i'm regretting how i started this chapter of my life. i'm regretting how i've only started socializing more during the last year of my uni life. i'm regretting how i did not trust my gut instinct.

regrets are one thing. but life is made up of time, and time is linear. you can't go back. you can't rewind it and try to re-edit your life. no, you can't do that. all you can do is live. not for the past; maybe for the future. but what is important is to live for the present. yes, yes...i know it sounds all too familiar. but i was reading an article today on how pent-up emotions we have can result in them being expressed in other forms. for example, that nagging pain on your right shoulder could be an accumulation of some negative energy from a fight with a loved one. or maybe, the nasty breakouts on your face could be due to your inability to let go of something that has happened. okay, so maybe you may think "oh no, sarah has gone all zen believing in alternative treatments etc." but i do believe this is true.

and i think this stupid pimple scar i have had on my chin since april (shit! 6 whole months!) has got to do with my inability to let it all go (letting it go is more than getting over it, because i can bravely and strongly say that I AM INDEED OVER IT!). and also the immense regret i am experiencing and feeling right now with my whole living abroad experience here in Sydney. yes, there may be regrets as to how things went, but there is no point harping about them. in fact, it may not be too late at all to start afresh again here. after all, my current plan is to apply for permanent residency and work here for a while. i must say indeed, that i do enjoy living here, and there's a certain charm about Sydney that makes me wanna stay here. well, there are reasons luring me back to Singapore, but i don't know if they are strong enough for me to go back now. i do wanna go back, but the question is..when?

i guess as time progresses, the bigger picture will all become clearer. for now, i shall just start sketching this picture, filling in the colours as i go. and for all i know, the picture that i've sketched could indeed be very different from the final piece of work.

ok, so it may just seem like a whole load of garble, but yes, i need to let it all go. for once i've let all the negative energies out can positive energy start filling in again. i've lost some innocence, a bit of my smile, and maybe to a certain extent a part of me. but i believe like all living things, i still have the potential to grow; the potential to bloom once again.

so yes, from today onwards, i will no longer be plagued with these regrets of mine. i am officially letting it all go.

xx
sarah

i can see it.

2009-09-27T23:40:00.002+10:00

4 more weeks. ok, 4.5 weeks including assignments. and yes, i'll be done with my final semester of uni. sheesh. how time pass. i just remember not too long ago, i was graduating from TP. but yep, still mixed feelings about it. happy on one hand, but kinda afraid as well. at times, i'm really not too sure where i belong - Singapore or Sydney. i do miss Singapore, but i have gotten used to life here as well. i don't know. but i guess my heart lies in Singapore. i always envision myself returning. but then again, who knows what will happen eh? i guess i'll take a step at a time, work here for awhile, and it will all depend on the circumstances. whether i'm doing well here, the kind of opportunities etc. maybe it won't even be Singapore or Sydney, but somewhere else! that's the exciting part i guess.

oh wells, i better go do my readings. haven't prepared for tomorrow's tutorial. i should cherish my last few weeks of uni.

peace out.

xx
sarah

keep the focus.

2009-09-13T00:18:00.002+10:00

i have been neglecting this blog for a while due to my latest addiction with Tumblr. blah. micro-blogging is too addictive, and rather stressful at times in my opinion; having to keep up with the pace of things. everything is just so...FAST!

why can't things slow down for a change these days? we live in a society that craves instantaneity - fast food, text messages, the internet, fast fad diets etc. we become accustomed to the fact that we should be able to get what we want, FAST. we want IMMEDIATE results. what happened to the concept of 'no pain, no gain'? i don't deny the fact that i too wish there was an instant solution for everything. after all, in most aspects of our lives, be it school or work, we are pushed into having to produce results quickly; till we have been programmed to think that way.

on top of all that, the internet is also forcing us to be multi-taskers - IM, emails, social networking sites, TUMBLR and yes, i almost forgot, uni work. so how are we supposed to keep our focus? how can we ensure that we're giving our 100% to everything that we do? i guess we can't really. but what we can do is to prioritize. so i guess the lesson for me now is to prioritize my next 6 weeks. that's right, my LAST 6 weeks of uni. focusing on a few things at a time will ensure that my head is not muddled-up, help alleviate stress, and in turn, produce better results. so now, i'm gonna take the next 15 minutes to jot down my priorities and keep the focus.

xx
sarah

aligned.

2009-08-23T23:30:00.002+10:00

okay. so i'm cheating. didn't have time to write yesterday but shall do so now :) it's been a while since i've last posted. i've got a new haircut - loving it, my back is in the process of getting fixed, and i've been keeping up with my yoga lessons! yay for that. the only bad thing is that i have an assignment due this friday and i've yet to start :(

went out and played tennis with the media girls over the weekend. i shall let the pictures do the talking since i really REALLY should start with my assignment. haha. it's kinda scary though how it's week 6 now. i'll be finishing uni soon! mixed feelings about that, mainly because i don't know what's lined up after, but at least i have a queensland trip with the girls to look forward to :) i know i always said i'll be spontaneous and take it as it comes, but it's weird not knowing. it's weird not knowing what i'll be doing this time next year. hmmm.....okays, i shan't think too much. i'll let life surprise me for once :P

enough blabbering.

* seriously miss clubbing in singapore :( *

* this is what happens when you leave girls in the change rooms *

* main uni walkway, thank goodness there weren't many people *

actually, i think i'll miss uni.

xx
sarah

a year older and embracing changes.

2009-08-02T12:10:00.012+10:00

it's been 2 weeks since i've blogged. it's now august, i've started uni, i'm a year older, and i have an assignment due next monday! AHHH!! sheesh, time really passes too quickly. but talking about uni, i've calculated the number of days i have left.

to start with, i only attend uni twice a week. i have 13 weeks in total.

2 x 13 = 26

the first week, i only had 1 day.

26 - 1 = 25

so all in all, i have 25 days of uni this semester! yes! only 25 days of uni. that's less than a month.

i've attended 3 days.

25 - 3 = 22

so now i'm left with 22 days! hmmm...

to keep me occupied on my days off, i've recently started practising bikram yoga or hot yoga. i thought i gave it a try to help me cope with my lower back pain from the injury i sustained about a year and a half ago, and maybe try to improve my overall health too. so far i've been for 4 lessons over the past 2 weeks, and i'm loving it! i'm hoping to try to attend classes on a regular basis. besides, the heated room is nice and toasty, rather nice for the chilly weather now. seriously, i've never sweated so much before! i could just be standing there doing one of the poses, and dripping sweat. ok, doesn't really sound glamourous, but the feeling is good :) for those who are interested in finding out more about bikram yoga, click here.

and i thought i'll just comment on something the yoga teacher shared with us during one of the lessons. he mentioned how we as people are sometimes reluctant and hesitant towards change. how we stick to a certain routine, even though a change might be beneficial, but just refuse because we're comfortable with it, or it has become a habit. so i thought about my own life and see how i've become so stubborn towards change too. i thought about my golf swing - how i refuse to correct my posture and ensuring that my left shoulder comes down first. i thought about badminton - how i refuse to correct my forehand movements and footwork. i thought about my own life - how undisciplined i've become in cultivating a good sleeping habit.

change IS hard. if it's not hard initially, then it may possibly be that there wasn't any change at all. sometimes how we manage change is to bitch, whinge and get frustrated about it. but i think if we learn to embrace change, we could be making the process easier and more enjoyable for ourselves. i'm not condoning all changes here. there are times when people change for the worse. but what i'm trying to convey is that we shouldn't fear change, rather, we should EMBRACE it.

anyways, talking about badminton just now reminded me of something that happened yesterday. shelley and i took part in the A Ladies' Doubles UNSW badminton tournament yesterday, and i got HIT in the eye during the 2nd game we played! OMG. first time i got hit in the eye while playing baddy. it was seriously painful. but shelley insisted i continued playing; she really wanted to win, so did i actually. blah. so it was still alright. it hurt a little, but the vision was still okay. but then when we had to play the 3rd game. the vision went very very blurry in the left eye (the eye that was hit). i couldn't really see my backhand side, especially when we were on the side of the court that was facing the glare from the sun. so we lost that game. blah. and to the pair we MOST wanted to win. sigh. i was disappointed, cause i was actually playing well before i got hit :'( so we came in runners-up instead. after that, i continued to play B mix doubles. needless to say, i didn't do very well too :( in total, i played 6 games yesterday. more than i do in an average baddy session. but i had a good sleep last night. the eye is feeling better and i think the slight swelling and redness has gone down. so yay for that. i wouldn't exactly be thrilled with the idea of going to uni with a bruised eye.

okay. i think i've wrote a pretty long post today, but there's just so much i wanted to share. to end it off, here's a picture from the little celebration i had. if only the important people in my life could be with me :( but it's alright. birthdays have become just like any other day to me. haha.

* yes, i've only turned a year older, so i only need 1 candle :P *

there are definitely a few things i like to change in my life. and i know for that to happen, i not only need to learn to embrace change, but let go of being in a comfortable state (and the bad habits) and allow change to take place. how about you? are you willing to allow change to happen?

xx
sarah

photo stickers and the lot.

2009-07-12T23:50:00.010+10:00

this week passed pretty quick. i remember telling myself last sunday that i should pack my room on monday, but that didn't happen. and neither did it happen on tuesday, wednesday, thursday etc... ( i think you guys should be able to get the picture that the packing never occurred) ... so now here i am, a week after, still sitting in a messy room..BLAH! i need self-discipline! AHHH! anyways, i'm pretty happy. results came out on thursday and i think its the best semester so far :) hopefully i'll be able to do the same for my final semester!

well besides not packing i think the week was rather productive though. did abit of touring around Sydney with a couple of friends, managed to play more badminton (which i think i'm beginning to love again), went to the gym quite a few times and oh, i've been attending street jazz dance lessons too! LOL! i'm am really bad at memorizing the steps though :( i reckon i'm too stiff? hmmm...hahaha..oh wells, gotta practise more i guess? :P

anyways, pardon me if this post is really disjointed and boring..i'm really tired but thought i should write a post..to end things off, me and Julie went photo stickers crazy today (neoprints)...ahh..and acted really Asian too (note the twists and poses).. LOL!

can't believe i only have 1 week worth of break left. oh wells, i'll try to savour it as best as i can :) lookout for cupcake pictures soon! will be baking on tuesday! which reminds me, i did bake banana muffins this week. Shelley brought them to work and her colleagues were raving bout them! :D i don't think they were of equal sizes though (note: i did bake them at 3am)

xx
sarah

it's the holidays.

2009-06-28T20:39:00.003+10:00

it has been a while since i've updated. since then, my mum has went back to Singapore, i've finally completed ALL my assignments on time (thankfully!) and i'm now on my mid-year break :)

come to think of it, it's kinda scary. i'll be embarking on my final semester soon and everything after that is just a blur. i'm not sure what i wanna do and what i'll be doing this time next year. i guess most of my fellow peers are going through the same thought-process right now...oh wells...

i am hoping to explore the world more though. looking out for some overseas internship experience, not that i'm not away from home now, but yea, i guess it'll be interesting getting to live in different places and meeting different people. i am considering Asian countries like Hong Kong, Shanghai and Tokyo. so if anyone knows any opportunities there, let me know! :)

meanwhile, i'm still on the lookout for local part-time jobs and internships. besides i only have 2 days of uni next sem! i've also been practising golf, with more time on my hands now and trying to keep fit. oh gosh..rushing through assignments - late nights and comfort food, not at all a good combination for losing weight. i'm also gonna try to do things i have been meaning to do like..BAKE! i haven't baked in ages and i sorta miss it. i've got a list of desserts i'd like to bake, so just need to set aside some time! oh yea, i'm also thinking bout heading down to melbourne for maybe a weekend - should i or should i not? hmmmm...

alrighty then, i'm gonna get back to packing my room and cleaning up the house (inspectors will be coming over tomorrow to check on the condition of the apartment) and maybe catch a few episodes of Gossip Girl (my secret indulgence!). till next sunday, tata!

xx
sarah

no stress.

2009-05-31T18:20:00.013+10:00

YAY!

and

NOT-SO-YAY :(

stupid work is piling up. i have a feeling i might not be able to finish with 3 deadlines this friday, but yeah..trying to remain positive! i'm almost done with one, but how about the other 2? :(

OK! i WILL finish them...no stress!

well anyways, im loving my new HTC Diamond 2! :) so hopefully that will keep me spurred on. and yes, the upcoming holiday too. and fingerscrossed with the job too. hope the end of this week will be a sweet one. ok, i'd better get back!

xx
sarah

a short update.

2009-05-03T23:39:00.002+10:00

i have been too lazy to blog. with heaps of work piling up, i just can't find the motivation to type or think. just want to laze on the couch and watch TV. BLAH! but yea, it's MAY! and next week is week 8 of uni! how fast is it? 5 more weeks and i'm done with the semester? Sheesh...but yea, as i have no exams, the end of the semester is a very scary thought. it means all my assignments would be due! and for me, that is essays, essays, essays and yea, a website too. but luckily the website's not due till 22nd June. weird deadline in my opinion, considering the rest of my stuff are due by 5th June. hopefully i would be able to complete the website sooner though, so that i could have a longer holiday! 6 weeks worth of winter vacation. not much, but my mum would be here for 2 weeks, so yep..and maybe i might head to melbourne..LOL! hmmm...

but yea, meanwhile, i have been trying to keep fit..haha! i'm already starting to feel the onset of winter with temperatures this year already starting to dip into the region of low 10s. trying to practise golf more often too, but the days are getting shorter, its getting darker earlier..sigh...

anyways, i better get back to my work..head's throbbing just thinking about the things i have to do. maybe i'm the one giving myself stress..but oh wells, i'm one who functions on stress..LOL! alrighty then, still can't believe we're almost midway through 2009!

xx
sarah

don't pause too long.

2009-04-12T21:35:00.014+10:00

it's been a while since i've last blogged. it's just that uni has been busy, and i haven't been managing my time well, which resulted in me being rather stress the whole of last week. but it's all good now! the long easter weekend and the one week break i'm gonna have this coming monday will allow me to get back on track! :) so what happened in the past two weeks? well, pretty much assignments, golf, badminton...went for a party hosted by the SSA (Singapore Student Association), drove and stayed overnight at the South Coast this weekend and did a little bit of shopping today. i was pretty groggy during shopping cause me and Shelley finished a whole bottle of Rosé during our late lunch. and i think my body somehow doesn't process wine very well..lol! oh yea, i loved to do more reading too, but i'm already swamped with heaps of reading from uni. but here's a good book to read. it contains snippets of thoughts and reflections by a Brazilian author, Paulo Coelho. The title of the book is Like The Flowing River. it's easy to read as each piece is 4 pages maximum, which makes it good for people who find that they can't dedicate enough time for a book. another highlight of the book is that it really pushes you to think and contemplate about life.

anyways, i'm also working on a new blog skin for this blog. it's in the process, design-wise it's almost done, but i just have some difficulty with the coding. blah! i really hate codes, and to think that i have a major website due in June for one of my courses this semester. here's a little sneak preview of it.

*the soon to be revamped 7HoursAway*

the new blog will hopefully take on a new approach. it'll share more about my life such as books i'm reading, music i'm listening to, current muses, more pictures, and maybe videos too! i'll also try to post songs i've written, well, the ones that don't suck too much..lol! i hope i'll be able to get my acoustic guitar soon. would like to play and practise more. realized i didn't dedicate enough time to the guitar the last time i was learning classical. but yep, i wish to write more songs too. not necessarily to make hits, but as a way to narrate and portray my life. it's a good way to channel emotions too! :)

i'll end off with some pictures from the South Coast trip and a personal thought.

*Grand Pacific Drive*

*thank goodness i wasn't the one driving*

*lighthouse at Wollongong*

*Kangaroo Valley Golf Club*

and now for the personal thought/quote...i'm not sure if this is original, but then again, what's original nowadays? haha.

people always seek the answer to the question, "what's the meaning of life?"
as simple as it may seem, it's a difficult question to answer.
for some, the meaning of life could be attaining great success; creating a fortune.
for others, the meaning of life could be simply making others smile.
so what's the meaning of life?
i believe we each create and define our own meanings.
there's no hard and fast rule for living life.
it is after all, OUR life.

choose your own meaning of life, stick to it, and most importantly, believe in it.

xoxo
sarah

thin paper cuts deep.

2009-03-22T18:28:00.004+11:00

i have already completed 2 weeks of uni and it's week 3 next week! sheesh..how time flies. week 3 would also mean that i'm 1/4 through this semester? bleah. anyways, it was a pretty bad week this week in terms of sleep and uni. it started with a back log of work to do since last sunday. i had two concept notes due and a 2-page brief about my web design project and a mini-presentation. so yep, late nights and early mornings are a deadly concoction for me. on the other hand, i was really happy with myself in terms of my progress in golf. i don't know what struck me on wednesday but suddenly, i could hit so much better! and since then, well only friday actually, i'm seeing an increase in distance and height of my shots =) and yea, i've enrolled in a beginner's course in golf that is offered by the uni and i'm starting this friday! woohoo! pretty excited about it. it'll give me something to do on fridays too, since it's my day off from uni.

so how's uni? i guess it's the same. glad to see friends i haven't seen the whole summer. somehow it also feels good to be back studying as i seriously think the summer break was too long and it made me feel useless. but still, i really dread the heap loads of reading we have to do each week. but i guess at least now i have a purpose. i know i always said the plan is to not plan, but i've been thinking lots on what i'm gonna do after uni. will i continue to study for an honours degree (hopefully i'll make the cut)? will i work here? or will i go back to Singapore? the questions are tough and i hate thinking about them, but it's something that i would have to think about in due time too. so yea, i don't wanna dwell on them as of yet, but i've certainly gotta give myself a sense of what's to happen in the near future. i can't escape the fact that i'm someone who doesn't really flourish on spontaniety.

oh! i'm hooked onto samurai sudoku (5 grid sudoku) for the moment too. i think life's pretty much like a samurai sudoku puzzle. it's pretty hard to do, takes a while to figure, but the answers are literally staring you in the face. also, you have to do the puzzle as a whole (look at all 5 boxes and not solve each box individually). you get a little high on it at the beginning as you fill in the easy boxes using the hints. but then when the hints are used up, you really gotta exert those brain cells of yours. as you fill up more boxes, more answers start coming through, but then, it gets a little messy and convoluted and your brain's tired from all the thinking. you pause for a while, look at what you've filled up and then continue. finally, it's all filled up and you've completed it! ok, maybe it doesn't sum up the whole of your life, but maybe part of life is similar to it.

ok, i guess i better get back to my readings for tomorrow. don't wanna be lost in class. plus i just watched 2 episodes of gossip girl. not good. it's addictive! lol! ok, till next week =)

loves.

xoxo
sarah

newly calibrated.

2009-03-08T17:38:00.010+11:00

it's almost been a week since i've came back to Sydney and i'm starting uni tomorrow! certainly amazing how time passes so quickly. since i've been back it was pretty much unpacking and packing. folding, and FOLDING. folding clothes, folding boxes, folding bags....i hate folding!! also been trying to neaten the stuff around the house. getting things sorted before the commencement of the semester. plus, the new sofa and TV stand came, so the place has been in a rather chaotic situation the past few days. blah! and now, we have to start a "professional" blog for uni, so i'm not sure if i'm able to keep up with so many blogs! i don't really think it's graded, but i guess it's good to get started on one, since it's important to build a steady stream of intellectual thoughts on my area of study - media. oh ya! and i've been practising with my new golf clubs. hopefully i'll be able to dedicate more time to it soon. i really need to polish my swing and get the ball UP HIGH in the air!

anyways, just wanted to let know that i really enjoyed my trip back to Singapore. though i think i partied kinda excessively, i definitely had HEAPS of fun! =) it was a very fulfilling vacation, and i kinda think i've matured in certain ways (excluding the times i got a little sloshed). for one, i've definitely matured in my way of thinking; learnt how to self-reflect on my own behaviour and better manage my feelings and emotions. i guess pains and sorrows are inevitable and the best way to overcome them is to actually go through with it, bear with it, and understand that you'll come out a much stronger person. indeed it was painful, but to be able to look back at it and not feel much anymore shows that i've come a long way, and that i've learnt to take it in my stride. so there's no use harping on it. i'm in a comfortable state now.

i'd also really like to thank everyone who had been there for me. though at times a liability, you guys still stood by me and cheered me up! if it wasn't for you all, i might be in a more dire state now. LOL! also a big thank you to those who came down to the airport to send me off! it wasn't the best timing but you all made an effort, and sacrificed a little, so i'm certainly very appreciative of it.

*love you all*

last of all, as much as i dread the horde of assignments that awaits me come the start of next week, i'm a little excited about uni. it's gonna be different i guess. hopefully. well, at least now i have a different hairstyle! haha! till next week then. loves.

xoxo
sarah

good riddance.

2008-12-28T10:12:00.000+11:00

i thought that i should write an entry before the end of 2008, and since i'd like to keep up with my Sunday tradition will try to "post" it on Sunday. but yea, it is Thursday today and i'm only heading back to Singapore on Monday night, so thought i must as well post it up now since i have internet connection. i have a feeling it is going to be a really long post, but i guess it's only apt since it would be the last for 2008. with a multitude of things that has happened this year, it is only right i serve it a proper conclusion.

so yep, first things first, i'd like to thank all my gracious friends who have embraced my coming back to Singapore with such warmth and who have stood by my foolish antics offering me their support and comfort. it is good to know that i'm not alone and it only made me realize how stupid i've been in neglecting them the past 3 years. so let me say a big apology to all. i promise i'd be a better friend in 2009. *promises* =) and yesh, i know i've been lamenting how it doesn't feel like i'm back in Singapore, but i'm sure this time once i come back from Hong Kong, it'll be different.

in fact, the 1 week i had in Singapore, though it felt dreamy, has provided me a big wake-up call. it was as though i've been propelled into reality; the cold harsh world that is awaiting me beyond my soon concluding youth. i guess i have been guillible and naive. surprisingly, i'd never thought of myself as naive. always thinking that i'm a strong, sensible girl. but i think with regards to certain aspects of my life, i still have heaps to learn. i don't feel sadness anymore, just an immense feeling of stupidity. how could i have let myself to believe everything a person says? i never believed in an altruistic world, but i put faith that a person i've been closed to for a certain period of time would actually deserve some of my trust. so i decided to look at the good and disregard the bad. but yet, i fell, and was trapped in an endless series of lies. it was all just a facade. there were so many lies that have been unravelled that it feels as if the whole relationship itself was a lie. i was made to look like a fool and it feels as though the person whom i thought i knew so well was in fact just merely a stranger. but i guess it reaffirms the fact that i do deserve so much better; so much more. and that is probably why i don't feel sadness; but am just numb about it. cause it's like there was nothing there in the first place that's worth being sad about. i thought nights and nights on why my first relationship ended like that. and why i must meet such a person. but then i thought again, that this is probably good. 1) it serves a good lesson upon entering 21, not to be too trusting of people, and 2) as i mentioned before, provides me a good dose of reality.

so in fact, i thank him for being my first (and am grateful he ain't my last). for it made me realize as much as we like to believe in love as a sacred thing, there are a lot of people who think of it differently. who do not cherish love but who goes out abusing it. but i guess that is a personal choice and i can't force them to live any other way for it is their life. and so i forgive. i do not want to leave this world bearing any grudges or any hatred. but that does not mean i don't care, just that it is part of my past now and it shall remain there for the rest of my life. i am kind of excited in a sense. it's going to be a whole new fresh experience for me. there's so much more people i can meet. and now, i can live my life in Sydney in Sydney time and not Singapore time. haha. and yesh, i do have another 2 months in Singapore before i go back again for my last year of studies (if i don't do honours). i think i'll apply for permanent residency in case i wish to work there in the future. also, i'd really like to concentrate on my studies and maintain/improve my results. and of course, have HEAPS OF FUN the first two months of 2009. it shall start with the new year's eve party, though i've yet to plan..oops! but yea, whatever we're going to do, i trust we're going to have fun right?

so yeps, i can't wait to return from Hong Kong and i'm excited as to what's going to happen in 2009 =) there's so much more to life that it shouldn't stop because of one minor pitfall. i believe i've come out a stronger girl. so much wiser now (i hope). LOL!

much love from Macau.

xoxo
sarah

the last.

2008-12-07T23:38:00.010+11:00

oh my gosh. i can't believe it. this is actually my last sunday in Sydney for this year! and i'm heading back to Singapore this friday! i'm so excited!!! =D

but yep, anyways this week was pretty much getting errands done and all, and i bought my macbook! it's so sweet. way better than my old powerbook. a little bigger but so much thinner and lighter!

* cool packaging *

just look at the packaging. so sleek, so cool, and so chic. but what's better is what lies inside....

* beyond words *

seriously, when i opened the box, i was totally struck with awe. everything is so 'cool'. this is what apple does to us..LOL! but yea, i also got a crumpler laptop case to protect my new baby.

* my red crumpler laptop case *

okay. enough about my new macbook. this week, i had my first golf lesson with the coach at Shelley's golf club. YAY! i can hit the ball slightly better! he told me that considering that it was my 2nd attempt, i was pretty alright =) so yeps, might get my own set of basic clubs soon to practise in Singapore! also, i caught up with Natalie on monday. it is certainly nice to see a familiar face from back home. and soon enough, both of us will be back in Singapore and partying hard. TP baddy will be complete again. sort of. LOL!

* in front of the Sydney opera house *

but yea, towards the end of this week i got pretty sick. all Shelley's fault! passed me her flu/sore throat bug. so annoying. oh wells, getting better now i guess. i better be! cause i don't wanna waste time lying in bed when i'm in Singapore. we have to party hard peeps! but yep, i still managed to head down to my friend, Julie's early 21st birthday celebrations tonight. had a couple of drinks and managed to catch up with some uni friends which was nice. =) not going to see them until next march! that's pretty long ay...

* at Julie's birthday party *

there are more pictures, but these are a few that have been uploaded so far. oh ya, and my exercise regime this week was not good. because of my sickness, i didn't really go to the gym that often. but thankfully, still managed to maintain my weight. i must lose more in Singapore, so please control me if i stuff myself in that plate of orh luah (without orh), hokkien mee or char kway teow. haha. i think i'll try to moderate my portions. afterall, i have 2 months to savour all my favourite and very much missed local fare. i actually wrote a list. maybe i should write it down here. here it goes.

*sarah's must-eat food list for singapore

laksa
oyster omelette (orh luah mai orh)
fried fish bee hoon soup
char kway teow
carrot cake (chai tau kway)
kway chap
prata
curry chicken
nasi lemak
chicken rice
bak kut teh
mee rebus
mee siam
double boiled soup
wanton mee
hor fun
duck rice
chai chee porridge (blk 85)
bak chor mee (blk 85)
bbq stingray (blk 85)
mee pok
din tai fung (xiao long baos!)
mos burger
popiah

that's about all i have so far. but i'll add more as i slowly recollect the food i miss. LOL! quite a number of dishes eh. have to slowly cross them out one by one. =)

oh my gosh. i'm just so excited! i'm still deciding if i should continue the sunday tradition of blogging when i'm back, but i guess i'll see how it goes. SEE YOU ALL SOON!

xoxo
sarah

that was the last straw, don't wanna hurt anymore.

starless nights.

2008-11-30T00:28:00.028+11:00

there has been pretty much an overcast over sydney the past few days, and as such, i haven't been able to see the stars in quite a while! *sobs* :'(

*but yay! got to see Jupiter, Venus and the stars in the sky tonight (sunday, 30/11), and it was certainly lovely!

well anyways, i have quite a few things to cover in this week's blog entry, so hopefully i'll remember everything. bleah. should have written an agenda. LOL! but yep, first things first, RESULTS WERE RELEASED!! i received it in the unimail 7pm on thursday (14 hours before the stated time). oh my gosh, seriously, the few seconds the mail took to open was certainly the most nerve-wrecking moment in my entire week! haha. but luckily, i was pretty pleased with how i fared. surprised actually. 1 high distinction, 2 distinction and a credit (i got 74 which is 1 mark short of a distinction!). surprised because the subject in which i got a HD, was the subject i feared most. how ironic. told you guys life is just one big irony. but yep, overall, this has been the best semester so far in terms of consistency =)

the next thing that i want to say is that...i'll be coming back to Singapore 3 days earlier than priorly scheduled! i'll be arriving in Singapore in the afternoon, on the 12th of december. i'm so excited as that means that i would have an extra weekend with my dear ones before i leave for Hong Kong & Macau!! especially since Juan would be going on her year-end holiday before me too. but yep, plans on Saturday the 13th please! any suggestions?? =D

well, if you noticed the time on this blog entry, it's surprisingly early as compared to previous entries. this is mainly because i'll be stuck helping out at the UNSW summer badminton club competition (in about 11 hours time), the whole of my sunday. how boring. but i guess it is only apt. a boring conclusion to a boring week. LOL! but yea, it wasn't that boring i guess. i did quite a bit of shopping this week. bought a casual tee, a nice going-out top, and a tommy polo-tee for future golf practices! (it was reduced to $50! i had to get it!). yep, you've seen it right! i'm taking up GOLF! hahaha! i actually went to the driving range on tuesday to hit up and get a feel of the swing etc. i can't exactly hit the ball far or high, but trust me...soon okays! just need more practice. the coach at shelley's golf club also gave me a few tips and said that my swing had a nice follow through. so definitely some potential there alright! lol! so why the sudden interest in golf you may ask. well, it is ultimately for a myriad of reasons, one of them to get my mind off things, but yea, i think golf is a useful sport that may be put into good use in the near future. and maybe i was also influenced subconsciously by shelley's fanatical golf habits. haha. i'm probably going for a lesson this wednesday and will follow-up with more lessons when i am back in Singapore. will keep you guys posted as to how it goes! i also caught up with Maggi this week before she left for her holidays. it was nice and i'm going to miss her. will only see her next in March 2009.

i have also been following my exercise regime stringently, though i noticed that i've been losing less weight this week. i guess i have to inject new routines to ensure my body does not get too conditioned to the exercises i've been doing. Raymond's recommendation is that i should combine interval training with the long-distance running i've been doing, to ensure that my metabolism rate is kept high. also, not to skip meals, which i have been doing pretty often. bleah. will try to incorporate these tips into my regime next week and hopefully i'll continue to see improvements =) but yea, i definitely feel stronger. did push-ups last night and i feel that i had an easier time in comparison to previous attempts during my badminton trainings. haha. this upcoming week is also going to be busy. will be catching up with Natalie on monday, heading into the city to buy my apple macbook on tuesday, golf lesson on wednesday, shopping for friend's present on thursday (her party is next sunday!), dinner with our previous neighbour on friday night and the party on sunday. also, i have to start clearing my wardrobe and packing my room in preparation of my return to Singapore!

so yesh, pardon the longish entry this week. well i did forewarn you guys. haha. to conclude this week, here's a chinese song that i've been listening to. it's a song by Karen Mok.

*BTW, it was introduced to me by my dearest Shu Juan!

* 莫文尉 - 如果没有你 *

can't believe november is almost over! although it wasn't as great as expected, december will be better for sure! also, the following weekend will be my last weekend in Sydney for this year! well, till next week.

xoxo
sarah

in retrospect.

2008-11-23T15:52:00.009+11:00

3 more sundays and i'll be back in Singapore. how cool is that?! it has been 17 weeks since i've been back and i'm missing everyone (and the food!) so much. this week passed pretty fast due to the "sleep at 5+am, wake up at 3pm" routine. sheesh. i have to start readjusting my body clock. this is just so bad! (shujuan's and *****'s fault!). but luckily, i have been pretty disciplined with my exercise regime. still trying to exercise as much as i can. the day i had a break from exercise this week was thursday and it wasn't put to waste. i bought a new pair of platform heels and i'm so in love with it! well..that's until i do actually wear it and develop blisters all over my feet! haha. here's how it looks like.

okay. i know i should actually take the side view and the back view so that it would be clearer as to how the shoe looks like, but yea, let's just say this picture doesn't do it justice and i'm too lazy to take another. haha. but anyways, it is pretty high (i measured and it is about 4inches?), so i'm not sure how i'm gonna walk in it, but yep, who cares? the shoe is pretty! lol!

so anyways, back to the exercise regime. i just want to say that running in the gym on the threadmill (cause i don't want to go out running and get stuck at some random place) has been pleasurable. i guess one reason is that i can see myself improve and through that it feels as though power and control has been vested upon me (wah! sounds serious eh). and this is something crucial to me at this point of time. with certain emotions and things beyond my control, running in the gym empowers me; it allows me to slowly regain control of the things happening in my life now. (okay, just realized i used the word "control" so many times, but yea, making my point you see. LOL!)

that aside, results are due to be released this coming friday! i am feeling a little nervous as i seriously don't have a gauge of how i would fare for a few of my subjects. hopefully everything will be fine. i'm keeping my fingers-crossed. also, i guess for this week i would be trying to finish up on my animation which i have been working on bit by bit every single night. haha. i seriously just need to set aside one day, do it in one shot and get it over and done with...ahhhhh! also, i'll probably be catching up with maggi before she leaves for her holiday. shelley and i were also thinking about a possible 1-night trip this weekend. oh ya, natalie would also be dropping by sydney this coming saturday night, so i'll be catching up with her too.

so yeps. that's about all for the moment. maybe i should start on the books i've bought but have yet to read. well, maybe after the animation is done. see, i'm such a procrastinator. haha. till next week.

xoxo
sarah

p.s. there's no other way to put it, so just let me say that i do in fact miss you. do you?

happy birthday my dear.

2008-11-16T23:28:00.003+11:00

first of all, HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY SHUJUAN! you're finally 21! haha! and i heard you were smashed drunk before 1am. hmmm. well, at the risk of revealing more embarrassing details, i shall refrain myself from talking about it! lol! so yep, it's been a week since the big 'B' and i must say my state of emotions really improved throughout the week thanks to my dear friends who have been busily entertaining me =) it was a pretty fun week too, went to the fish market and bondi beach with my friend maggi and finally had my dosage of nice seafood! yums. caught up with my poly friend jeanne on thursday over dinner and ice-cream - it was nice catching up with her =) had a friend's birthday party over the weekend too. also, also...i finished watching season 1 of gossip girl in 4 days! haha!

*ok, for juan, i shall add some pictures.

the after-party.

currently, i have been rather disciplined with my exercise regime except for yesterday, when i had macdonald's at 4+am...*shakes head* and the times i had ice cream. oh wells, i feel rather guilty today and will definitely tighten the reigns of my diet this week! hopefully, the coming week of exercise will be good and fruitful! i find myself panting later whilst running on the threadmill and i feel that my posture has improved abit. yipee!

i don't have much planned yet for this week, except for brunch with maggi on tuesday and probably catching up with a coursemate, mary, and a party on the same day (not sure yet though). so yep, only tuesday's pretty packed up. but i intend to go shopping on thursday, be it alone or with someone else. i want to get this bag i saw last week and look around for a nice pair of black platform heels (for partying when i go back to singapore)! i saw a really nice one the other day, but when i flipped to check the price...OMG! no way am i spending 400+ AUD on a pair of heels. at least, not at this age when i'm not working and living off my parents still. and i guess, i better start on the animation i meant to do for this person. its been 2 weeks and i have not touched it! not good! also, i intend to clear my wardrobe so that i can update it with new clothes when i go back to singapore =) plus, im still waiting for shelley to vacuum the house! or maybe i should do it myself? hmmmm.........

so it does seem that i have alot to do. lol! just that they are things i keep putting off. bleah! so yeps, better try to get it done this week. 4 more weeks before i head back to singapore! so excited!! can't wait to see you all.

xoxo
sarah

a new chapter begins =)

2008-11-09T14:10:00.011+11:00

okay, first of all, i'm gonna tweak the date a little to 'keep up' with my sunday tradition. haha..honestly, it hasn't been a good weekend, my eye bags are huge, and my eyes are kinda sore. but yet i must say, it was indeed an 'eye-opening' weekend for me. i've learnt a lot of new things - lessons, values and i even acquired new mindsets (according to someone! lol!). and to me, i feel that these are important things that will carry me throughout the rest of my life! besides, learning is always good right? a loving person is a forgiving person. i don't want to bear any grudges with anybody. it's only when i am at peace with myself can i be at peace with those around me. therefore, yesterday night, i saw myself channeling all possible negative thoughts into positive thoughts. i forgave and i felt that a whole load of weight was soon taken off. i feel more light-hearted now.

so there's no point harping about it. yes, there is pain, but i've minimized it. forgetting or keeping yourself occupied will not help. i've learnt to let it go. and by letting it go, i can still keep the memories, whilst reminding myself that they are indeed only, memories. there's only one way from here - forward. no turning back at all. cause that's just life. life goes on whether you want it or not. time passes, days pass, years pass, never ever waiting for anyone. so i'll take a deep breath, keeping my head upright, standing tall and straight, and what do i do next? continue with my life.

so yeps! i've been on an exercise regime. been wanting to get on it seriously for so long, and thus far, i have been pretty disciplined. so i'm hoping to keep that up. also, i'm looking forward to Singapore, can't wait to meet my lovely, gracious and oh-so wonderful friends, my family & the HongKong/Macau trip with them, and my little stevie boy! =) i would also love to catch up with friends i've been neglecting, do the things i wanted to do such as sewing and updating my blogs (there are some new ones =P), and PARTY hard! we're young and this should be the best time of our life! we should have lotsa fun! most importantly of all, i would want to concentrate on my studies, hopefully get into honours and do my parents proud. i don't want them to think they've wasted their money on me..lol! so yesh, these are my priorities in life now, and i'm dead set on achieving them!

oh yea, also, the new year's eve party/get-together is still ON! everyone's invited! just that we don't have any plans at the moment! LOL! but yep, it doesn't matter where we go or what we do! so long we have FUN and LAUGHTER, that's enough. though i would still love to catch the fireworks and soak in the party atmosphere (so hint to shujuan - somewhere outside please!). i'm looking forward to that too! party hard and start the new year on a good note! well, i guess that's about all. and if it is your first time reading this blog, i hope you'd come back next week my friend. i know i may be boring, but hopefully this will be a way for me to keep in touch with my dear ones. till then!

xoxo
sarah